I just came back from the gym and I am so proud of myself because that was my second workout this week! Yesterday I went to this cycling class and I thought it would be a breeze but it was surely intense to say the least. The instructor had us standing up on the bikes and stuff…I could barely keep up, lol. Today I decided to try a stepping class. That class was a little less intense but my feet were giving me hell. I need to get it together! I decided that I will keep going to different group fitness activities at school until I find one that is at my level (over time I will step it up a few notches). I think I might give swimming a shot next week. To help keep me motivated, I’ve joined The 50 Million Pound Challenge. I’m not looking forward to it, but I definitely need to purchase a scale to keep track of my progress of losing my goal of 24 lbs. I think I’m off to a good start!
I guess this week I’m realizing some things that I need to work on. Weight has never really been an issue for me. I was always a very skinny girl. Friends and family would joke around and tell me things like, “girl you need to get some meat on your bones!” No, I didn’t like how skinny I was,but there wasn’t anything to do about it. I ate anything and everything I wanted and still didn’t gain any weight. I would look at other girls and (black) women on TV (read: video vixens) and wish I could be as voluptuous as they were. Well, about 2 years ago, my wish started coming true. After taking Ortho Tri-Cyclen to treat my acne, my weight slowly started to increase. I went from a steady 115 to ~125. Then within ~1 year, I gained approximately 30 pounds! Some idiots that I hadn’t seen in a while even asked me if I was preggers! Read more…
Since about the 5th grade I have been experiencing problems with my skin, specifically ACNE. I absolutely hate it! I am so fed up at this point because all this time everyone has been telling me that I would grow out of it. Well, I am 22 years old and there are no signs of me growing out of it. During my teenage years my mother shuttled me in and out of dermatologist offices and I’ve tried everything from Accutane to Proactiv to Doxycline to Retin-A, Ortho Tri-Cyclen and countless others. NONE of it (with the exception of Accutane worked). I stopped taking Accutane, however, due to side effects and $$$. For the past 2-3 years I gave up on treating my acne and just let it do its thing. The most I do is put a full, very uncomfortable face of makeup on everyday. There were some points of time where I felt confident enough to not wear any makeup, but those days are few and far between. So far, the only pattern I’ve figured out is that my skin breaks out the most around the time my monthly comes on. Sometimes I get fooled that my skin is getting better and that it’s finally clearing up for good…but then the hormones always sneak up on me and cut me down to size. Read more…
